What to Do? What to Do?

I'm sleepy, but I don't want to
I want to do something, something that have benefits to me...
Bored playing, too slow bandwidth
Want to talk someone, but there's none I want
Felt so lonely, no one is there
Trying to think something, something I want to
Oh! Bother thinking, was all of I did is just a mess
But there's nothing I want to de best
I'm lack of sociality, maybe
Lack of exercising my communicating skills
Everyday, everynight I marinate in front of my computer
All I did is to enjoy, fun, contented
But I'm still not satisfied
There are times I'm so happy, There are times I'm so sad, There are times I'm so crazy
There are times I'm so lonely, There are times I'm so rude, There are times I'm so angry
There are times I'm in despair, There are times I look forward, There are times I'm so guilty
But what is the reasons to be guilty?
I want to be free from temptations but where could they come from
Had to be honest to myself, if everything would be released
There is no way to open it, or I cannot only see it
I don't know what I will thinking of right now
Is there's a chance to make it in the same time, or need to be with advice
I didn't recognize the time taught me on how to be so calm
Even if there's no more hope, still my mind so soft
There's no reasons to help people... the best thing to do
People who don't want to be tomorrow is those people who don't think to be
Everyone's thinking and dreaming of future, even they depends on what will happen
The only dependable thing about the future is uncertainty
The way of a person full of hope
There's nothing to worry about coz' everythings under control
The only thing that was on my mind
Is that what to do next of...
All I have to do is to relax, lie down, and wait in time to tell on my own tasks...

New Look, Same Life

For having of almost 1 year of no haircuts... My hair became sol long and almost my friends and people that never seen me in that year can't notice me.

I'll start when I'm still look simple... This picture at the right side shows me and Mr. gary V. at SM Fairview last April 26, 2005 around 8pm after his promotional Philippine Tour about his album "Soul Full" at the same time in his 22nd year in the showbiz like singing, dancing, acting, etc.

So, I planned to forget haircuttings and grow my hair longer and longer, last September 3rd or 4th week is the last time I went to the haircutter. Then it grew longer and longer until the time that I thought of haircut again,.. My ex-co-keyboardist (cause I'm gone playing keyboard at our church :D), Mike Lopez, encourage him to get rid of our haircuts in the same time, some big deal... So before I show my new look this is who I am... I don't like yellow too much but I don't know why every pics I have is that I wear yellow shirt (to be attractive, is that?)

March of 2005 Week before we've been shave

Sean William Scott copy my image...

(Sorry! The other images cannot be displayed.)

And then, last August 26, 2006 is the time of a great new look...

And here's Mike Lopez' look before and after...

and then...

Here are some benefits of my our look…

1. Less Shampoo
2. No more dandruff
3. Cooler haid
4. No more hair gel
5. No more combing
6. No more ugly look when we wake up
7. We look and feel better.
8. Donate at Guimaras Island for the Oil Spill disaster.
   

Watcha think?

So what?!!

If you don't want, if I can't, why do I need to???

Here we go again,..
I spent many times just to think about my problems but it always came into nothing...
It's already late at night but I stil can't sleep well because of my insomiac,
I really don't want to think about those problems,..
I'm not contented... of being what? Of being lack of what? Of what thing/s?
Why don't I just continue to the real world? Always dreaming of many that never be possible!!!
Every dreams are nonsense!!! It was just an inspirations...
Closer You and I? Who'se 'You'? I don't really need to think of that!!! Nonsense...
Focus on my studies to understand and explain it well more than I can explain this time
Science maybe explain what I am thinking about,
Even mathematics can calculate the problems what I'm confusing to,
English and Filipino subjects to exercise my vocabulary and expressing,
I don't need the rest, majority, it is!
I can help yourself! I manage my own life! I have this life...
The other thing is, I don't need everyone!!!
So what's the point? Nonsense...
Just return to the world I already made for myself...
Stand to the edges, reading the surroundings what's happening,
never speak until I decide what if it is the right thing to do,
forget the things that bothers myself, return to the life that is where I grew up,..
It's better to grow up where I survive my childhood life,..
It doesn't matter to me if they say,"You are not a child this time..."
so what? I am the one who make the final decision for myself,
It's none of your business!!!

Stop what are you doing right now... everything of it is a nonsense!
You have your own life, honour, mind,..
It didn't affect you of what you're doing right now so,..
it is very clear that you did now is only a nonsense!

Nevermind. Return to your own world, the real world.
Walk with hope, intelligence. Nothing will stop you from deciding of what you want to...

A New Personal Computer for P49,650

I've bought a new personal computer for P49,650...

Here's the specs:

Intel Pentium D 930 3.0GHz (Dual Core) 2x2MB 800FSB BOX (LGA775)
MSI 945PL NEO-F i945PL (LGA775)
2GB DDR2-667 PC2-5300 Generic(2x 1GB DDR2 RAM)
240GB Seagate 7200 8MB S-ATA HDD (80GB+160GB)
1.44 FDD Teac Black
LG (GsA-H20L) 16x DVDR-W Dual Layer w/ Lightscribe White
128MB (256MB TC MAX) Inno#D GeForce 6200 (64bit) TurboCache PCIX
17" LG Flatron L1730s LCD Silver
Epraizer (V11a-BSTB) ATX X-Side Black Silver
Appo;o / Powercom 500va UPS (3m Battery, 1y circuit)
Generic 350watts psu
CoolerMaster (RS-380-PMSR) 380watts Extreme Power psu
Logitech Internet Pro Desktop (Black Marble) Internet Keyboard + Optical Mouse Combo (3m wty)
Creative SVS 350 black (2.1) (3m wty)

All of that in just (?!?) P49,650 exactly!!!

I've got a small problem...

I don't know what to post here right know...

Speak it... tell it... say it... I know you can!

I'm thinking of... How can I can get Closer to you?!? Yes... You and I,..
I don't know why I'm thinking of this... I can't sleep. I just telling what was in my mind right now.
I can't explain. I don't even know why. I'm just not good in expressing myself.
I'm afraid. I never lie to myself. And I don't want this happening to me.
My insomnia was returned. I don't know why.
I'm thinking too much. I don't want to think of it.
Something was telling me... what is it?
I don't know. Tell me... No one understand me.
Everybody thinks I'm cool, but not cool enough.
I almost make myself to the fullest... But almost is not enough.
No wonders what's happening. Express yourself.
Everything has explanations why all of it is in this world.
This is the reality... Why I'm telling this???
I can't wait... tell me!
What is that thing that I want to get?
What is that thing that I need right now?
I can't relax, I can't sleep...
I still not contented for myself...
Something missing, something wrong.
Nobody knows,.. Think of it!
I don't understand. I can't get what I was telling to you about...
What was I'm telling, what is this?
Silence...

Never mind,.. None of your business,.. Forget it,.. This is my own,..