So what?!!

If you don't want, if I can't, why do I need to???

Here we go again,..
I spent many times just to think about my problems but it always came into nothing...
It's already late at night but I stil can't sleep well because of my insomiac,
I really don't want to think about those problems,..
I'm not contented... of being what? Of being lack of what? Of what thing/s?
Why don't I just continue to the real world? Always dreaming of many that never be possible!!!
Every dreams are nonsense!!! It was just an inspirations...
Closer You and I? Who'se 'You'? I don't really need to think of that!!! Nonsense...
Focus on my studies to understand and explain it well more than I can explain this time
Science maybe explain what I am thinking about,
Even mathematics can calculate the problems what I'm confusing to,
English and Filipino subjects to exercise my vocabulary and expressing,
I don't need the rest, majority, it is!
I can help yourself! I manage my own life! I have this life...
The other thing is, I don't need everyone!!!
So what's the point? Nonsense...
Just return to the world I already made for myself...
Stand to the edges, reading the surroundings what's happening,
never speak until I decide what if it is the right thing to do,
forget the things that bothers myself, return to the life that is where I grew up,..
It's better to grow up where I survive my childhood life,..
It doesn't matter to me if they say,"You are not a child this time..."
so what? I am the one who make the final decision for myself,
It's none of your business!!!

Stop what are you doing right now... everything of it is a nonsense!
You have your own life, honour, mind,..
It didn't affect you of what you're doing right now so,..
it is very clear that you did now is only a nonsense!

Nevermind. Return to your own world, the real world.
Walk with hope, intelligence. Nothing will stop you from deciding of what you want to...