What to Do? What to Do?

I'm sleepy, but I don't want to
I want to do something, something that have benefits to me...
Bored playing, too slow bandwidth
Want to talk someone, but there's none I want
Felt so lonely, no one is there
Trying to think something, something I want to
Oh! Bother thinking, was all of I did is just a mess
But there's nothing I want to de best
I'm lack of sociality, maybe
Lack of exercising my communicating skills
Everyday, everynight I marinate in front of my computer
All I did is to enjoy, fun, contented
But I'm still not satisfied
There are times I'm so happy, There are times I'm so sad, There are times I'm so crazy
There are times I'm so lonely, There are times I'm so rude, There are times I'm so angry
There are times I'm in despair, There are times I look forward, There are times I'm so guilty
But what is the reasons to be guilty?
I want to be free from temptations but where could they come from
Had to be honest to myself, if everything would be released
There is no way to open it, or I cannot only see it
I don't know what I will thinking of right now
Is there's a chance to make it in the same time, or need to be with advice
I didn't recognize the time taught me on how to be so calm
Even if there's no more hope, still my mind so soft
There's no reasons to help people... the best thing to do
People who don't want to be tomorrow is those people who don't think to be
Everyone's thinking and dreaming of future, even they depends on what will happen
The only dependable thing about the future is uncertainty
The way of a person full of hope
There's nothing to worry about coz' everythings under control
The only thing that was on my mind
Is that what to do next of...
All I have to do is to relax, lie down, and wait in time to tell on my own tasks...